this blog is still alive, i swear!

quick post before going to bed.
not much has been going on lately. just been hanging out with the french people more. or actually, i've gotten to the point where i feel comfortable enough hanging out with them by myself. before it was typical that most of the mei guos would come out with the fa guos. and i really wouldn't hang out with the french unless at least another non-fa guo was there. but now that i've gotten closer especially to anissa, antoine, and francois, it's been better.
i still feel like the whole situation i referred to in my previous post is a bad one and is going to blow up in our faces and hurt people [not that it hasn't already...] but whatever. what's going to happen is going to happen and we'll all deal with it [or not] then.
i know it seems like all i do here is party, and i won't lie, there's a lot of that going on but it's not the only thing. i swear! but i will admit, my other responsibilities like aacc, naascon, and other things that i need to prepare for next year have been put on the back burner and i'm really ashamed about that. i don't know. for the last few months or so, i feel like i've been on my way to a huge mental breakdown that's going to happen any moment now. with all this stress that i don't know how to handle and add on personal melodrama, this is not going to end well at all.
anyway, honestly, not much has happened. the kei group did go to xian a few weekends ago and it was okay. i did like the fact that i didn't have to worry about anything [for the most part] but i didn't like how we didn't have much flexibility in what we wanted to do and the tour guide took us to all these touristy places [of course] where there were shit loads of people. but it was nice to get some bonding in with the kei kids and hakim. :]
we're going to shanghai [among other places] this weekend, leaving friday night and coming back tuesday afternoon. i'm a bit apprehensive about how the trip will turn out, but considering we've already paid and probably wouldn't be able to get a refund, i'm gonna fucking go and make sure i get my money's worth. i mean, most anything is what you make of it right?
and then we took greg out last night because he said he wanted to get drunk [he's never even been buzzed before and just wants to see what the whole fuss is about]. we were SUPPOSED to go to butterfly/kai but ended up at china doll. and he got in a few shots and cocktails but i don't think it was quite what he expected. my only regret is that most of us weren't drinking cause we didn't feel like spending shitloads of money [china doll's drinks are delicious but expensive as hell]. that's why we wanted to go to butterfly which is sooo much cheaper. but yeah, so he was essentially drinking alone which was not good. i feel like a lot of the reason why people like to drink is because it's so much about being a social experience. but yeah. so that was kind of disappointing. we're trying to convince greg to let us take him out again so we can give him a much better experience but i doubt he'll let us. damn.
and then hopefully, we'll be going MOUNTAIN CLIMBING in a few weeks. zzoommgg. we were supposed to go weeks ago but it kept getting post-poned. it's going to be amazing, i can feel it.
it's already may and i'm freaked. we only have about two months left and then the program is over. and then most people will be going back home. :[ i really don't know what i'm going to do for a month. hmmm.